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I knew all of my attackers. This is my story.
They were having a party upstairs—a drunken din of Springsteen and raucous conversation. He tried to charm me into a sip of his beer, grinning hard even as I said no. Harder still when I told him to put the condom back in his pocket.
When he kissed me, he tasted like beer, hamburgers and barbecue potato chips.
I enjoyed kissing him. He was the first boy I allowed below the waistband of my Bluenotes, and underneath my fluorescent padded bra. Again I said no.
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When I kicked free, he followed me into the hallway, tackling me to the ground before I made it to the first stair.
His clothes were back on and he was no longer interested in sex. His hands crunched my wrist bones, pinning me down—he desperately wanted to stop me from telling the adults upstairs.
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Eventually, my secret became as destructive as the rape itself. L ast winter, during the Jian Ghomeshi trial, I felt like I was the one being interrogated. Why did I act like nothing had happened?
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News reports catalogued reporting rates and rape kit statistics. Twitter hashtags sprouted like mushrooms: All I could feel was a stifling pressure to be strong and resilient. It theg my personal experiences into a political rallying cry. My feminist politics dictate that, as a survivor, I am supposed to be unashamed and even outspoken about what happened to me. I shunned the sisterhood at every turn.
The thought of admitting it, even in a hashtag, was suffocating. An admission would invite scrutiny, not support, or so I told myself. It took me 15 years to realize that the only way to put my broken pieces back together is to tell my story a hundred, a thousand times—until that shame goes away. Flashbacks blazed without warning. I would shut down during sex. When I had a blaci attack, my heart fluttered, sweat dripped down my back, my breath hiccuped.
It felt like I was dying. Even today, the smell of grape soda makes me gag.
I tried to suppress my panic attacks—which only bred more flashbacks. Getting treatment would have meant confronting what had happened to me.
I thought my parents would be ashamed of me if I told. I believed it when my rapist called me a slut, blamed myself and was sure everyone else would, too.
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I smiled as my hip bones began to jut out and my stomach turned concave.
Then I cut myself for the first time. It was Easter, a few months after my rape. I was in our kitchen, and my parents and little sister were outside waiting for me.
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